I pretty much love everything about you:)

Hey Buddy,
Right now you're sleeping away but I'm thinking about how much I want to grab you out of bed and watch your sweet face as you sleep. I sneak into your room almost every night before I go to bed to watch you sleep. You are an amazing creature. Tonight you cried for a while before falling asleep and it is SO hard for me to hear you cry because you sound so desperate and it makes me sad that I can't make you happy. I mean, I try to pick you up and rock you but you just get even more irate! Gigi says you have a temper but I like to say that you're passionate:) I know you are/will be a man of passion because God chose you to be here, now for a reason and you will need passion for God and the things of the kingdom to go after your destiny. So keep up the passionate screaming my little one because one day that same passion will be used by God to lead you forward into great things!

This past week you have really started moving around... its so cute. When you first started scooting you could only go backwards but you have mastered forward motion at this point:) Today especially you have really begun to get up on your knees and move... i really think you're amazing. I believe your main desire for crawling is that you don't like being left behind and mobility is the only way to insure that it won't happen. If I leave the room for a moment to get Zaya some juice and she comes w/ me, you LOSE IT. I mean, passion pouring down your cheeks:) At first I thought you had really bad separation anxiety but I think you really just don't want to be left out and you want to keep up with your sis. Soon enough, my love, soon enough:) Just so you know, your sister LOVES you. When ever you read this I don't know what your relationship with her will look like but I hope it is similar to now. She will walk up to you and so gently rub your head and in a high voice say, "Hey Bean", and then she'll give you a kiss. Its adorable... you are loved. Oh and you love her something crazy too. No one can make you laugh like she does and when she is in the room you love watching all that she is doing... you're going to learn a lot from her!

Well, its off to bed for me little man. I will see you very soon... I can't wait!

Little Bean

Hey Buddy, you're napping right now and its 1pm on Sept 13th. You will be 6 months here in a few days and I can't believe how big you already are! You are over 20lbs and scooting all over the floor! You steal my heart with every smile and I love our alone times together... its rare that we get it. Today I'm just hanging out with you, Zaya and your daddy and we're enjoying a lazy Saturday. This morning I went into your room when I heard you rolling around and playing and when I walked in you gave me a HUGE open mouth smile (which is your BIG smile) and my heart melted and I just had to hold you SO close to me. I was hoping all the love in my heart would just pour over into you my sweet Bean.


You have already accomplished so much in your few months on this planet. You are eating 'solids' in mass quantity and I can't seem to keep you full! Anytime you see food or someone eating you just open your mouth as big as you can hoping that something will fly by and fall in:) You love to scoot along on the floor and get up on all fours and rock back and forth... its amazing how you can get around. I have a feeling you'll be crawling pretty soon here:) I'm proud of your many accomplishments! You have a sweet personality and you love to smile and laugh... usually at your sister.


Yesterday we went to let Zaya play with some pals and there was a little girl your age there and y'all had a big time... you have a friend:) Y'all will get to play a lot more this next year!


Well, know that I love you little man and I'll write you again soon. I hope these notes always remind you of how much your mommy loves you.