So many milestones, so little time!

Hey Buddy,
I love you, I love you, I love you. I figure that is a good way to start and its the way I start most of my days! I haven't written to you in almost 2 months and you are already a completely different little guy. Ok, about 2 months you started scooting around (you were five and half months old!) and you were off! Since then you are now crawling like a wild man, I can't keep up with you! You cut your first two teeth in the same day on October 23rd and you look SO precious now when you laugh and smile... and even when you cry. You are eating table food and you don't want anything else, seriously. A couple weeks ago we were at the Smiths and you had eaten some peas and I had mixed some sweet potato in it and you had eaten every bit. So then the 'adults' sat down to eat chili and you were getting SO mad because you wanted my food (this is fairly typical at meal times). As a good strict mother I should have let you fuss and not rewarded the behavior, but I gave in (which I do regularly) and I fed you chili. Chili, to a 7 1/2 month old! I was kind of nervous after the fact because I didn't want your tummy to hurt but you did fine and you were much happier:)

Now that you can crawl you are quite aggressor to your big (non-aggressive sis). Whenever you see a toy flying through the air in her hand, you must have it and you attack her and crawl all over her while she is squealing for help. I love it that you're mobile and that you can get things and it makes you so happy but dang, your poor sis doesn't know whats hit her. Y'all are really cute together. She loves you so much and loves to make you laugh. The first thing she asks in the morning is, 'Where's Bean (or brudder)?' She LOVES running in to wake you in the morning or from nap... I think she's bored when you aren't around:) I know that y'all will have your moments and you will think she doesn't like you or you may not be too fond of her at any given moment but always remember that y'all are a team and when it seems like no one has your back, you always have each other. I think that God gave us siblings because we need to learn how to relate with our 'peer group' and learn to be a blessing and an encourager even when we know ALL of the other persons faults. You are a strong man and although Zaya is your big sister, God still wants you to protect her and look out for her. You two need each other, just like Daddy and I need each of you and you need us. I love you precious one and one day when you're reading this you probably won't be getting a million kisses from each moment like you do now, but always know that your mommy loves you more than words can express and with all my heart I want to be the best mom in the world for you and Zaya. What stuns me even now is that God loves you even more... it doesn't feel possible:) I love you, my little man.

I'll post some pics of your teeth and you crawling around soon:)

I pretty much love everything about you:)

Hey Buddy,
Right now you're sleeping away but I'm thinking about how much I want to grab you out of bed and watch your sweet face as you sleep. I sneak into your room almost every night before I go to bed to watch you sleep. You are an amazing creature. Tonight you cried for a while before falling asleep and it is SO hard for me to hear you cry because you sound so desperate and it makes me sad that I can't make you happy. I mean, I try to pick you up and rock you but you just get even more irate! Gigi says you have a temper but I like to say that you're passionate:) I know you are/will be a man of passion because God chose you to be here, now for a reason and you will need passion for God and the things of the kingdom to go after your destiny. So keep up the passionate screaming my little one because one day that same passion will be used by God to lead you forward into great things!

This past week you have really started moving around... its so cute. When you first started scooting you could only go backwards but you have mastered forward motion at this point:) Today especially you have really begun to get up on your knees and move... i really think you're amazing. I believe your main desire for crawling is that you don't like being left behind and mobility is the only way to insure that it won't happen. If I leave the room for a moment to get Zaya some juice and she comes w/ me, you LOSE IT. I mean, passion pouring down your cheeks:) At first I thought you had really bad separation anxiety but I think you really just don't want to be left out and you want to keep up with your sis. Soon enough, my love, soon enough:) Just so you know, your sister LOVES you. When ever you read this I don't know what your relationship with her will look like but I hope it is similar to now. She will walk up to you and so gently rub your head and in a high voice say, "Hey Bean", and then she'll give you a kiss. Its adorable... you are loved. Oh and you love her something crazy too. No one can make you laugh like she does and when she is in the room you love watching all that she is doing... you're going to learn a lot from her!

Well, its off to bed for me little man. I will see you very soon... I can't wait!

Little Bean

Hey Buddy, you're napping right now and its 1pm on Sept 13th. You will be 6 months here in a few days and I can't believe how big you already are! You are over 20lbs and scooting all over the floor! You steal my heart with every smile and I love our alone times together... its rare that we get it. Today I'm just hanging out with you, Zaya and your daddy and we're enjoying a lazy Saturday. This morning I went into your room when I heard you rolling around and playing and when I walked in you gave me a HUGE open mouth smile (which is your BIG smile) and my heart melted and I just had to hold you SO close to me. I was hoping all the love in my heart would just pour over into you my sweet Bean.


You have already accomplished so much in your few months on this planet. You are eating 'solids' in mass quantity and I can't seem to keep you full! Anytime you see food or someone eating you just open your mouth as big as you can hoping that something will fly by and fall in:) You love to scoot along on the floor and get up on all fours and rock back and forth... its amazing how you can get around. I have a feeling you'll be crawling pretty soon here:) I'm proud of your many accomplishments! You have a sweet personality and you love to smile and laugh... usually at your sister.


Yesterday we went to let Zaya play with some pals and there was a little girl your age there and y'all had a big time... you have a friend:) Y'all will get to play a lot more this next year!


Well, know that I love you little man and I'll write you again soon. I hope these notes always remind you of how much your mommy loves you.